Because He Lives...He has blessed me!

Because He Lives...He has blessed me!
My first Grand Blessings

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Father's Day

Father's Day is a day that should be sad for me. My Daddy died when I was 8 years old. He committed suicide. I have been told that he had an injury from the Korean War that left him mentally incapacitated at times. He also had alot of sadness in his life. He chose to end his life. I wish that he hadn't. There have been so many times in my life that I could have used his shoulder to cry on, or celebrate with. So many times that I needed him to be in my life.

I did however have a wonderful step father. He did the best he could. He was my friend. I could not have picked a better 2nd choice. I lost him when I was 25. He died from lung cancer. I hate cigarettes. He was always around when I needed a friend and a father figure. But he was not my daddy.

Daddy's have a special role in a girl's life. Just a man to wrap his big strong arms around you and make you feel safe. I never had that. A man to protect you from big dogs and bad boys. I never had that. A man to walk you down the aisle to get married and care enough to make sure the man he was giving you to was the right guy. I never had that.  A man to be there when your children were born and to cry because he too, loved them so much. I never had that. A man to be there to pat your head when your heart was broken and let you know the most important man loves you enough to stick around. I never had that either.

But I do know that, it was his loss. He missed so many wonderful times and people that he was responsible for. I did get to hang around to love them for him. I thank him for the life he gave me and I do know that he loved me more than life. I am just so sorry that he did not have someone to shake him and make him stick around. Life is worth living...for those we love and for those we are going to love that we don't even know yet.

So, Thank you my Heavenly Father, for showing me Your love. It is everlasting and will never disappear. If not for You, I would never have made it through some of things that have come my way. You have used them to make me strong. You have shown me that through whatever comes along, that the life You have given me is worth living. Because You have been with me all along, today is not sad for me. I have been very blessed by everyone you have sent into my life. If my Daddy had not come to be with you, I would never have had Trey and Stacey. I can not imagine life without them. I adore them and all they have brought into my life. Because of that decision I have Brennan, Nate, and Charlie, not to mention Larry and Julie. Thank you for all you have given me in place of my Daddy. Romans 8:28 says,"All things work together for good for those who love the Lord." I do, and it has. Everything. Praise You.

 I love you, Lord Jesus. Thank you for wonderful memories of two daddies, my daddy and Hugh.